falling in and out of love

Heh! Last days my room is full of sunshine. Especially in the mornings. It`s so so so so nice to wake up, because it is too hot in the room (finally. I don`t need 4 blankets anymore. It`s enough with 2 :D) and the room is so light&bright, that I can not sleep, even, if I want to. 

You know, maybe some time ago I said, that Balikesir is booring and so on, but I changed my mind. It is ok, really. So nice people are living in here. I killed my prejudices and started to enjoy the time here. And now, when it becomes warmer, it`s even more nice. 

I can not wait the moment, when it will be hot enough to wear a dress with just a small jacket (no boots, no tights, no coats, no gloves).. then I will take my books and blanket again and I`ll go to park and stay there the whole day reading and writing. And then it will become dark and I will walk home alone, with my music in the earphones. And and and in the mornings I will make my morning meditation, by walking to the office by foot again. Theese 40 minutes are really relaxing and gives a chance to clear my mind.
Btw - Gamze is gone :( That`s sad. I mean - it`s good, cause she will start a new life and get back the sunshine, but at the same time - I`m gonna miss the couch patatoe nights, jokes, acting like we are working in office, cooking together, sharing the ideas, stories and gossips.... uff, yaaa. But, what can I do sometimes? :) 


I just remembered that I was also in Antalya. My excitment was killed, when it started to rain over there. But it would be ok, cause there were many activities inside the hotel (jakkuzi, pools, sauna, turkish bath, bars (free alco) and so on), but I couldn`t enjoy anyhing of all this, cause I got temperature - 38.2 degrees. I was hot, others were not :D:D. But I still had a good time, cause my Eliza was there and it`s not possible to have a bad time with her. And Boris saved my life with some medicine, which made me more or less alive.

Fethiye

Butterfly valley

FIn the last day over there I wisited my ex-couch surfer Ibrahim and seems that I`m going to FETHIYE to TURKISH WEDDING. It`s amazing, cause two of my dreams  will become true at the same time. I suggest you to google Fethiye. It`s so amazing with it`s nature. And there is a buttefly valley, which is full of butterflyies in Spring. Ou yeah.. But I don`t have anything to wear :D And what should I do with my hair? ... heeh, I`m excited.



After Antalya I came back to Balikesir and met Tugce and Sinem with some more friends of them. We went to play bowling (I had played just a couple times before :D ) and they showed me one more cool place in Balikesir, where I`d like to return. 


On thursday I went to Istanbul again. Me and Eliza hang out in Taksim for couple of hours and yeah - coctail "Screaming Orgasm" is really cool :D Just 2 of them and head is spinning and spinning and spinning ... :D But why did I went there? Definetly not to drink that coctail (which is not that bad idea, indeed). I went to Istanbul to pick up my dear family from the airport. 
My brother and mother came to visit me and at the beggining I was sure, that they don`t like Turkey (my lovely and nice home). It made me really sad. But today - when they started (non-stop) to repeat, that they don`t want to leave, it made me feel great again. Now I`m sure, that they understand, what I am talking about all the time, when I tell my stories about life here with such an excitment. It is not impossible to explain, what makes this part of the world so special (a little more special than all the other places I`ve visited before), you just have to feel it.. feel from inside. And when it`s done, it makes everything clear.

It`s really cool, cause I didn`t tried to show the touristic and historical places (not just because we don`t have any in Balikesir :D ).. instead of that we went to MY places here - Cafe Cine with the most awesome bar trenders in the world, to the Ataturk park (colourful puffs), Kule bar, caffe with the gray haired cook and Clock tower square with fresh squeezed fruit juice. It worked out. And it`s AWESOME.


Now I don`t know, if I want to let them go back. Till now I felt quite comfortable also by being with myself. But I have to admit, that it`s such a nice feeling to have my family around me again (but it doesen`t mean that I would like to go back).Just the feeling, that people, who loves me the most on the earth are so close... yeah, it`s nice. But nothing lasts forever and I have my bussiness here and they have their own back in Latvia. Everything is going to be allright.


Life is good. Isn`t it? :)