MORNING SUNSHINE

I`m like a bird - I only fly away

I don`t know, where my home is.

I don`t know, where my heart is. 

I`m back in Balikesir and together with me also the Autumn has come. This is my 41. day here. If the time will  continue act so relative, I`m sure that it`s not gonna be enough with one year. 
And I still haven`t received ansver to my question - is ir really going to be so easy? I`m not complaining, of course, but before I arrive here, I was expecting more trouble and difficulties around me. Everything is just too good and sunny to be true. 
I`m far, far away from all problems and worries. There are so many things, which I don`t want back in my life anymore. I love this freedom, independence, experiments with life and thirst to discover the world. And I`m totally alone here - if I want to. I can turn of skype and facebook, so nobody can reach me, if I don`t want to. All the mundain things don`t affect me at all. I have my own money, time and free decisions. I`m with myself and I feel good.

And I managed to discover something for myself already. Seems that Idon`t like public and society anymore. I miss myself and time with my toughts. I`m kind`a individualist. I prefere to work alone, not in a team. I`m tired of talking and explaining something to others. I even don`t want to listen anymore. I just.... don`t care. I want to be small and invisible.
This is my way, my challenge and my lesson of life. I think that I still have enough time to understand, who I am and what I want to do in my life. Maybe I still feel a little confused and all my feelings are flying around me,  because I`ve never been in such a contrast tornado before, but I know that the time, I`ll spend here will be worth it. 
And seems, that this is not going to be my last tour into life. 
Ok, that`s enough about feelings. Now let`s turn to reality. 
Every volunteer MUST have on-arrival training in to the host country. And this is why I love Turkey even more. We had this training in Antaly - 5 star hotel next to the Mediterian sea. And this was something amazing, cause I`ve never been in such a beautiful place before. Sight from the balcony took my breath away, every time I opened my curtains. High mountains + sea + waterfall. I fell in love with this place from the first sight. 

Everything in this hotel was free for us, except alchocol. But as I don`t drink almost at all, it wasn`t a problem for me. Every meal we could choose at least between 100 types of food. There was everything. I mean - EVERYTHING. 
I was sharing a double room with girl from Italy. Price of this room per one night was 230 euro. And we were there 4 nights :D
The hotel ( http://www.clubhotelsera.com.tr/ ) had also around 1 hectar big terithory next to the sea. It was full of clubs, pubs, bars, pools, sauna, turkish bath, spa, tennis court and so on.
And I enjoyed it after full programm. It`s good that I met my party animal Eliza again. We were having party every night starting from the first song and ending with the last one :D 
Around us it was full of rich russian bit*hes :D but we were the only ones, who catched attention of everybody. It was even too much - we had to ask our trainers to protect us on the dancfloor :D Yeah!

I`m really glad, that I had an oppurtunity to see life also from this point of view. Actually I guess, that participants of this training, were the only poor people in there. All the others were rich russians and germans. And actually that was a bit disgusting, cause they don`t have any rules. They think, that they can afford everything. I mean - EVERYTHING. And so - this is how they act. Money, money, money and did I mentioned money?

We decided to stay 2 more days in Antaly, so this was the first time, I used couch surfing (www.couchsurfing.com) And my first experience was really, really nice. Ibrahim hosted us in his nice and perfect flat. He was even cooking specially for us. That was sooo cute. And the sight from his balcony - that was smth amazing. 
During the night me and Ray went to see Italian girls and Charlie in the harbour at the city centre. After that we went to pub to have beer. I had so much fun with italians. I love them, i really, really love them. After that, around 15 more volunteers joined us there, but unfortunately we had to leave to catch last buss back home. And what a happyness - we missed it. So we took taxi. Expensive taxi. Inststead of one lira 50 kurush, we paid 7,5 lira each :D
Now my plan is to  get back in to the working rhytm. :D I have to study turkish HARD. I`m the worst here, cause I don`t make any effort to it. Shaize. 
PS. - now it`s possible to book tickets for december just for 130 lats - round trip :) if someone want`s to visit me here - I`m waiting you a LOT :)