But in any case - changes always must be good, because nothing in this life happens without a reason.
Today also - it was definetly a sign. My menthor Selčuk took me to some of his friends - a married couple. It wasn`t planned or organized - just by accident, cause I had a lot of free time till my salsa lesson.
And then some miracles happened. First of all, when I went inside, I felt their energetic. I couldn`t read the details, but I immediately understood, what kind of people are living there.
And then the man said, that it is strange, that I came there, because normally it is hard to meet him in this way. But, if it happens, it must be something special. So, he asked me for my birth details and name+surname. He did many calculations and with every number he god, he was more and more supprised. I just heard "Incredible! Unbelievable! Amazing!". But he didn`t told me - why he had such an emotions, just "we will see in couple of days". So it`s also a sign, I guess.
But one more detail - he cheked my name. Tried to understand, where it comes from in the past. I don`t remember the steps, but suddenly he said: "Sunshine. You are the sunshine". My heart almost stoped. Cause a person, who meets me for the first time in my life can not know anything about my addiction to this word. Yes, in daily life I`m using it very much, cause it has always helped me a lot, when I`m down or I want to express my positive feelings about something. But how could he know? And he got it from my name.
The other part was conversation with his wife, which was really nice. We started to chat about families - how much harm parents do to their children with telling them, how to live, whom to love, what to do. But I strongly believe, that every child knows his mission from the birth. And then the communities like family, friends, school start to destroy it and make him forget, why did he came here. So she said: "Let`s imagine a small family. Mother with name.. (she was thinking)" and I said "Anda(name of my mother) ". And then she said "Ok, Anda and father Aleksandrs". And then my heart stopped, cause Aleksandrs is the name of my father. How could she know? It`s amazing.
Inšallah, I`ll meet those people again, cause from 10 min long conversation I can learn more thatn from whole life in university.
Maybe it is a bit hard to explain, actually I can not.... Just it made me feel so strange. To think so much. It was also a sign for smth.
Otherwise, my life is still getting better. Since my decision - NOT TO GO HOME and stay in Turkey also some time (year or two or more) after my evs, I feel that everything is getting arranged for me. Like some bigger power is helping....
Because you know, how much I dislike to work in kindergarden. But now, I have my dream job. I`m in to the projects till my ears and more. I could do it forever.
Damn! I feel so good and relaxed. I don`t want this feeling to end. Never ever.
The only thing, which worries me is the trouble in Japan. I feel so sorry for people over there. But the main thing is that, while I was living in Latvia, all theese natural disasters seemed so far away from me, cause we don`t have ocean for tsunami, volcanos for erruptions, tropical climat for orcans and seismic active zone for earthquakes. But here in Turkey almost everything is possible. Especially an earthquakes. And imagine - there are tens of them every day. 3,4,5 points are nothing special for them, but I`m a little affraid.
Check this map of daily earthquakes here in Turkey:
http://www.depremler.org/
But about Japan - I send all my love to there. I can not even imagine......so bad.
Ama šimdi ben uyumak istiyorum. Čok, čok yoruldum ve yarin belki bir parti var. Bakalim :)
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