If you do it right you love where you are

So, here we go again. Jason Mraz is still giving me goose bumps every time, when I listen to this song -
http://youtu.be/u5WiqJFq2-o

Oh, my, my, my beautiful...

And here I am again - at the confusing prelude of a new beginning with empty hands and dreamy eyes. I am not running away anymore - I am here to face the life, I did not want to see for a long time. It is hard to describe the way I feel now - like billions chaotic peaces of my being would have been put back in  their places. First time in my life I know, why I am in a place, where I am with people, whom I have to be with. I must clear the debts of my past to move further.
Now I see how much the time in Barcelona was wasted. Not because I didn`t like that amazing and lively city.. no, it is actually very lovable.. just my mind was always somewhere else. It was impossible to follow one of the main rules of life, that MIND, HEART AND BODY has to be in the SAME PLACE.                            
Long time ago, before I started to mess around the world to find myself, I thought that Margate would definitely be the last place on the Earth to arrive, but as you see - life loves to trick me, so here I am. The most surprising thing is that I feel really good, I feel that I am doing right.
I see this period of time as a link between who I was and who I will be and finally after such a long time I am not lost. I know what I am doing (hopefully) and what I am reaching for.

Almost one month has passed since I left Barcelona and drank last bowl of mojitos. I think soon I will be proud to receive a "World`s trump"certificate.

Life here is.....calm. Monday=Sunday=Thursday=Whateverday - all of them are the same. I am not waking up with sparkling mood and going to bed with butterflies in my stomach, no, not at all. In general, I am just disconnected from the reality here, cause most of my time I spend in inner dreams about my future - how I am going to pack my luggage, arrive in the airport (the most adorable place on the Earth for me), step inside the plain and move my ass to another place. Yes, that is what i really love to do - to arrive in new places and leave them after a while.