If I am going to get through all what I am going through alive, I don`t think that there is ANYTHING else in the world, what can beat me down. Nearly nothing.
It is not a provocation. Life, don`t mess with me anymore. One day, when I`ll stand strong again, I`ll prove that you were wrong by choosing me to be the one, you`ll try to break. Everything you ask me to carry is so fucking heavy, that it`s hard to walk, but it is not breaking my back yet.
What kind of lessons you want me to learn, by hurting me so badly? If you have so many difficult tests for me, why don`t you help at least a little with finding the right answers, before I decide to quit the school you have arranged for me?!?!?!
Time to time I believe, that all what happens is really unfair, that by accident I`ve chosen somebody`s else`s life, because it`s so hard to believe, that in such a short while the whole world could turn upside down so badly.
But then I think, that maybe I`ve been a bitch in my previous life and I owe something to Karma, so she`s bitchy with me now.
But there is no logic,because until some certain point, everything was going great, I was so full of joy and love towards life, nothing made me think, that at some point there won`t be any happy days anymore. Just a valley of pure stress and pain.....
And whom to blame? Hah. Only myself.
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