What will happen, what will be? ^^

I think everyone has noticed the fact that something is going wrong with our planet. The web-world is boiling, because of hot news from earthquake, tsunami and radiation in Japan, war in Libano, Super moon, 2012 and so on. I believe that big part of it is fake information, of course, but it also makes me think about the possibility - and what if? And what if it is true - there will be a 3rd world war, the electro-magnetical field will dissapier and non of our tehnics will be usable, more natural disasters will happen. 
I think that the media and also big mans of this planet are lying to us. Or at least - hiding the real information to keep the control over everybody and avoid from mass panic. 
As more I read information from some hidden articeles, as more I get the point - there is something like 2 realities - one is made for us - it makes us think, that this is the real life we live and we know a lot. But there is another one - where the REAL REALITY is hidden from our eyes.
It is a long story and every day I`m discovering more and more, just... it all makes me think about the meaning for living. 
Let me ask one question to you (and also myself at the same time): imagine, that it is certain, definetly, absolutely true - there is just one year left for this planet (of course it`s not true :)), but ok, imagine... and now - what would you do different? Is the current plans and life style good enough? Would you continue to live the same as now? What would you change? Is there anything you would like to tell to anybody, but now you are just waiting for the real moment? 
When I think about it - many things are changing. Many. And with this I wanted to show myself and maybe also to others - everything you tought about, while ansvering the questions, is how, we should live right now. Even nothing bad is going to happen. Even we could live forever. Damn. 
It makes me think...


I think this is one of the reasons, why last days I`m not me again. You know...I feel too small to stop the world now, cause for them we are just some numbers on the paper. But I am strong enough to change my life.   And it is better to start now, because you can never know, if "too late" is going to happen tomorrow or in 100 years. 


Except theese toughts and the reality, everything is fine with me. I think so... Waiting and arranging things for the new volunteers, which will arrive more or less in one month. Making plans about Fethiye in april, Gaziantep in may and VAN in middle of summer. 


I almost forgot - last Saturday I finally learned, how to drink RAKIII. And it is tasty ^^ para papapraaa. :) 
And I have the best mentor in the whole universe :) If it`s gonna continue like this, i`m gonna be sooo spoiled soon :D 


Ou yeees - and I can officially say THAT I AM LOOKING FOR A JOB ^^ Here in Turkey. If the city is bigger than Balikesir - it fits me. Izmir or Istanbul is perfect :) Any kind of job - language teacher, youth organisations, national agency, projects, caffe? hihi. Just the salary should be good enough to let me afford pay the rent, bills, food, some shoes, dresses and sometimes mavi  bianca and parties and travels :D ok, everything is included :D But seriously - if there is anything - just let me know, cause I already made my decision to STAY HERE IN TURKEY :) One year, two years.. life :) Doesen`t matter. Depending on situation :) 
Tamam mi? :) 
hihi. It`s gonna be great. SUNSHINE




Aaand I like this song: video is tragic, but music and lyrics are nice (turkish)
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=748F_QhDOEo&feature=player_embedded